Scream and yell

AhhHHHHHH! Yes that is my written scream of frustration and disappointment and annoyance! I can't take it any more and since there is no way I can scream within my house without someone thinking I've died, I will scream here.

AHHHHHHHHH!!! I'm so sick of seeing the status updates of engagements, count downs to weddings, count downs to getting a place of your own and count downs to births of babies! I'm 24, most of my friends are around that same age so why are so many of them doing this! Okay, I can understand the getting out of your parent's house but the other crap? Seriously? My very first college roommate is about to have a baby and is married and guess who wasn't told as it was happening? Me. I found out through facebook, send her a message and she never replies. Another friend just had a baby, other friends are married with babies, or getting married or getting pregnant or something. Seriously people whatever happened to just living life? We're young, we should still be enjoying things, going places, having fun not having babies!

Am I bitter that friends are starting real lives? Yeah, maybe a little, but at the same time I'm partially appalled at the rush into things. This isn't a great economy to be having kids and getting married so why would you do so without having a steady job and income? And when I say steady job, I mean a real, full time, adult job that you go to five days a week for eight hours a day. Not something where you go in when you want or for only a few hours at a time.

Grrr.... AHHHHHH!

Been a long while...

Wow, it's been quite a while. I was sitting here reading back through some old posts and I realized what an idiot I have been in the past few years. So much drama about things that didn't really matter, or that shouldn't have been such a huge deal. So what, a guy broke up with me. It wasn't the end of the world and I lived. I'm over it.

As for right now, yeah work pisses me off sometimes, but I still love working with the kids. Yes, school is annoying, but I have a semester left before I walk and then I get to start my masters program. I'm moving on with life, albeit at my own pace, but I'm working on it.

Now onto other matters - my current love life (because we all know that's all you people care about lol)... I'm currently dating possibly the most amazing guy I have ever met. His name is Joe and, even though I hate to jump the gun, I think this one might actually be the one. I get kind of scared saying that, even thinking that because so many times I had hoped a guy was going to be it and in the end never was. But it's been four months and I love him more every time I see him, think about him and talk to him. He sent me a text last night saying that he missed me and just wished he could have me near to hug :) . I'm completely happy with him and I'm praying that this feeling never changes.

I just get so frustrated and annoyed when I'm on facebook and I see so many of my friends married and starting families and here I am, still living at home and still in the beginning stages of a new relationship. Sometimes I just wish that parts of my life had turned out differently. Why didn't I do things sooner, why didn't certain things work out when they were suppose to... and then I think, well if things didn't happen the way they did, I might have never met Joe, or some of the amazing people I currently call my friends.

Anyway, I'll try to post more but no promises.